Bonjourno,
Well I made a start, on Kur 2 surprisingly enough, I just had some really good ideas for how to start it and started tossing things around in my head, ideas for scenes, the developing plot and the story, themes. I do think I need to write a self inclosed book, I mean Diana is that of course but it’s not a huge book, it’s something I planned to expand over a couple of books. So now I want to make a book that expands and finishes in one book, telling a complete and epic high concept story. But you know I can’t control where my mind goes and my mind right now wants to swing a broadsword around like Conan instead of flinging super powers haha.
I’m kinda in that weird rut again in between big projects because if I write a sequel to Kur but no one likes Kur 1 then I’m shit out of luck and I really need to go back and redo a lot of the first in my opinion. But I honestly don’t know if that would improve it or make it worse.
I really should be going into something new but I’m not sure the superhero story I want to do will really be the thing that gets the ball rolling. I always just sort of write whatever I feel like but at this point I’m going to die before I even get anything traditionally published haha. I’ve sort of accepted that I’m this spergy weirdo like Lovecraft who’ll most likely die alone and that means all that really matters is leaving behind something worthwhile. I mean there’s one thing that I can really say that I’ll leave behind that I know is truly worthwhile but in terms of my writings I can’t really pick out one thing that’s really significant, it all kinda feels like scraps, little tit bits of ok stuff floating around in a lot of junk. And I can’t tell if there’s more good than bad honestly and that’s really the difference between being remembered and being forgotten. Living forever or… not.
So I don’t know, only time will tell and other cliches, but it’s maddening and I feel like I’m running out of time and the deck is stacked against me. It’s one of those days where I wish white male straight privilege was a real thing so I could cash some of that shit in haha. If only there was a good old boys club for publishing, sadly that is not the case.
Anyway so we’ll see how that goes, I’ll continue to follow my creative ID brain to whatever stimulates me I guess. On the subject of what does and doesn’t stimulate me (epic segue haha).
I already said I bought game pass for a month to try out their games, it was like 2 quid and I feel like I got my moneys worth. I wanted to review Homefront the revolution because it’s a game that got totally fucking flamed when it came out for being a buggy mess. And I’m playing it like ‘this is really good’, it’s basically farcry 3 but or crysis but good. I don’t know another way of describing, it’s mostly just that the world feels more real and it doesn’t have these comic book villains, its just trying to make a red dawn scenario as close to reality as it would be. And I really like how the game is structured where you have these zones that are open warfare and then you have these places where people live and it’s more built up and you have to focus on stealth or you’ll be overwhelmed. I really like that pacing and strategy and the guns look and feel great.
I was gearing up to give it an awesome review just be a contrarian fuck but then I get to the end of the game and it just fucking breaks haha. Like its just dead, I can’t complete it.
I’m obviously not that pissed because I didn’t pay like sixty quid for it, it’s included in that two quid for gamepass. But if I had paid full price I would have been pissed because I did feel invested in the world and the story was decent, not amazing but it knew when to be involving and it knew when to stay out of your way. Which is the main problem with most far cry games, they try to give you this involved story with characters you barely get a second to care about before you’re thrust up their asses and it just feels forced. I much preferred farcry 2 because the story knew to sit on the edge and just let you enjoy the game and the world.
Still watching American horror story apocalypse and I have to say it’s probably the most boring season so far, there’s a lot of filler for a show that doesn’t have that many episodes to a season. Don’t get me wrong I like the main villain, I like most of their main villains the problem is that the heroes are fucking insufferable and every character Sarah Paulson plays has the smug turned up to eleven, it’s hard to watch.
I’m expected as a viewer to look at these irritating main heroes and like them I guess but expect them to lose to the more likeable and relateable villain but then he will ultimately lose because that’s just how these stories work. They toy with these horror elements but in the end the ‘good guy’s’ always wins and it sort of deflates the whole story. Have some fucking balls to tell an actual horror story and have your heroes lose, I mean they all come back as different people anyway.
It’s just what I hate about narratives like this, they’re so fucking predictable and worse they try to make you like characters that are shitty and only really there to push a narrative.
The reason it’s boring is because it opens up this new apocalypse world which is cool, they’re living in a bunker and there are biblical themes and mad max themes and it starts to work but now we’re stuck in this middling middle bit where it’s just flashbacks before the end where it’s sort of trying to fill plotholes from previous seasons we’d already forgotten about. Like I don’t give a shit if the ghosts from season one kiss and make up, I don’t care what happened to the witches in season three, they were barely likeable there. In fact the only likeable character in that season was Kathy Baites, admittedly she’s pretty much the most likeable character in every season. I wanted to cry when she died in season six, just a fantastic actress, I love it when she plays bad guys especially haha.
But you have this cool premise you could do pretty much anything with and it feels like it’s just jerking itself off spending whole episodes dwelling on past seasons like some cheesy clipshow from hell only to end in a way I know will be predictable as fuck. I mean yeah you need to know how the anti-christ got the ball rolling on the apocalypse but do you really need to spend like half the show on it going back to previous seasons? The show kinda feels like charmed right now or supernatural. I’m still enjoying it but I know how it’s going to end, hopefully it’ll be fun before that cringefest inevitably happens. At least I know it could never be as cringe as the end of season seven, jesus jumping fuck.
Anyhoo, can’t waste the whole fucking day on this, need to get back to planning Kur 2 electric boogaloo. This of course is the rough starship troopers pilot script, here we have some of that lovely cringe propaganda Paul Verhoeven added, this isn’t in the books but I felt like it adds a layer to the world building and it’s just fun and funny and campy and how could you not do it. Just lends a spirit of fun that I think was necessary, the book is a little overly serious, I do think it needed to make fun of itself like this.
See you…
–
INT. Studio
A strange looking man looks in the camera with a psychedelic backdrop.
Strange man
Do you think you’re psychic?
STRANGE MAN (
CONT’D
)
Maybe you are.
An eye opens on his forehead and a weird light comes from it.
VOICE OVER
The federation is opening testing sites today in your area for those who believe they are gifted, sign up today!
A smiling woman is sat in a metal chair with a screen behind her with large playing cards displayed on it, she’s trying to guess the them. There’s a man in front of her operating the machine.
ExT. Planet p. Day
The mutilated bodies of a colony of people in a strange desolate planet.
VOICE OVER
Horror on planet P.
VOICE OVER (
CONT’D
)
The mutilated bodies of members of a religious cult were discovered today.
VOICE OVER (
CONT’D
)
The religious group has been warned on several occasions against colonizing restricted zones of the planet.
VoICE OVER (
CONT’D
)
Was this some sort of ritual or something worse.
VOICE OVER (
CONT’D
)
Only the federation can guarantee your safety, stay only zones marked unrestricted. More at eleven.
InT. Courtroom. Day
A man in chains is brought before a council of judges.
VOICE OVER
A pornographer is convicted today.
VOICE OVER (
CONT’D
)
The sentence for this smut
pedler
is death.
A group of military police are lined up as a firing squad.
VOICE OVER (
CONT’D
)
Tune in live at six on all channels.
VOICE OVER (
CONT’D
)
Would you like to know more?
InT. Karls basement lab. Night.
Rico is hooked up to a computer and is doing the same psychic test the girl in the
infommerical
was doing. He’s trying to use psychic powers to guess the playing cards. The ace of spades is on the display behind him.
RICO
The queen of hearts.
Karl
That’s the fifth guess you’ve got wrong, statistically you should’ve at least guessed one right purely by luck.
RICO
So I’m not psychic and I’m not luck.
KARL
It’s not about luck its…
KARL (
CONT’D
)
Why the interest in all this stuff so suddenly anyway, you trying to read Carmen’s mind?
RicO
It’s nothing, I’ve just been having these weird dreams recently.
RiCO (
CONT’D
)
I haven’t been getting a lot of sleep thinking about what I’ll do after we graduate.
KARL
You’re
gonna
go on a rich kid’s vacation to mars or the outer rings of
saturn
and then you’re
gonna
go to
harvard
just like your dad wants you to. (
he’s
tinkering with something not directly looking at Rico.)
RicO
Don’t give me that rich kid
crap
, ever since we were kids everything I had was as good as yours too.
RicO (
CONT’D
)
Like that rolls copter my dad got me, that was as much yours as it was mine.
RICO (
CONT’D
)
It’s not like I asked to be this rich and good looking.
RiCO (
CONT’D
)
So what about you, big brain Karl must be going to college too.
KARL
Actually I decided to do a term of service before I continue with school.
RICO
Seriously? Why?
KARL
I
dunno
. It just seemed like the right thing to do. It just feels… natural.
Rico takes a moment to think about it.
RiCO
You’re serious.
RICO (
CONT’D
)
Then I’ll join up too.
KARL
Your dad won’t let you.
RiCO
How can he stop me?
KarL
It’s not like they’ll put us in the same squad, I’m not bucking to get shot at,
starside
R & D is more my speed. You know me, electronics are my thing.
KaRL (
CONT’D
)
What about Carmen?
RiCO
I walked her home again.
KaRL
Did you ask her?
Rico
To the dance? Sure I did and she said ‘yes’.
Karl looks a little surprised.
RiCO (
CONT’D
)
What was I not supposed to?
KARL
Well there were other options.
RICO
You mean like
Diz
Flores?
KARL
It doesn’t take a mind reader to know what she wants.
RiCO
It’s Carmen for me and that’s that.
KARL
It’s Carmen for a lot of guys.
RiCO
What’s that supposed to mean?
KARL
I mean
Diz
is a better fit. Carmen’s always been
kinda
…
flighty
.
RicO
Funny. She likes me.
KARL
She likes your
olympic
size swimming pool.
–
Darkly Dreaming Demographic. 
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