I need you, I need you both. I know we said a lot of things and I know you’re probably never going to read this, it’s just going to collect dust in your spam folder, maybe that’s what I want. But I had to get it out. I still love you, more than anything and I love her even though I’ve never met her except in my dreams, I love her and I would give my life to make her smile. I think someday we can have another chance, you’re crazy, I’m crazy but I really thought we could fix eachother, maybe so, maybe not, but it’s worth the risk. Maybe not to you, and that’s why we’re where we are now.

All I know is I lost something once in a lifetime, and maybe you lost less than that and you think I deserve to be miserable and maybe I do but I stand by what I said. If you’d give me another chance I’d spend my whole life making up for it, earning it day by day.

A warm summers day

The breeze blows through the far trees,

Your head on my chest.

A sweet dream of you

Your beautiful little smile,

The sun smiles at you,

The wind laughs with you,

My heart swells to hear your voice

Chase those clouds away.

I just want to be part of her life.