Said that I don’t care
So how come when I’m alone,
But of course I do
Only think of you?
I don’t know if you want me
Only been in love
Maybe once or twice
Now I’ve had a taste of you,
Got me so enticed.
Rightly to you everything;
My heart, soul, bitter passion,
To you my love, anything,
Our pressed skin cool and ashen.
In dreams, divine connection,
Your kissed lips and face elude,
Longing for your affection,
A bestial lust accrued.
The lovers cup communion;
Our bodies entwined tightly,
Under the stars reunion,
To me you belong, rightly.
Yeah I like it, the end haha.
Ok yeah not the end erm. I went into this kind of weird because I loved Hereditary but I know lots of people hate it for some reason I can’t fathom. That movie was fucking great, it was the exorcist for the modern era, I loved every minute of it.
I guess a lot of people were split about this movie too, so I didn’t rush out and see it because it kind of got mixed reviews and I’m not a huge fan of the wicker man the movie this is obviously homaging.
I mean I like the wickerman but I’m not like obsessed with it, it’s a cool movie but I didn’t burn pictures of Nicholas Cage when he was in the remake haha.
Midsommar is a very entertaining movie, visually it’s great, the lighting and camera work is fantastic, the acting is great, the music and diagetic sound is great. The atmosphere of the movie is first class. Throughout the whole film I was in a state of almost a trance but I was also on the edge of my seat.
The movie sort of held me in a state of perpetually chill but also a state of unease, it’s not a scary film, but it’s just a constant unsettling feeling under your skin and it’s great.
Maybe that’s why people didn’t like it, they went in expecting a standard horror movie like the conjuring or annabel or texas chainsaw massacre and instead they got something that just gets under your skin. It has it’s occasional shocking horrific moments but it mostly just simmers in your subconscious.
Even though I let the ending get ruined for me because like an idiot I watched the red letter media review before I watched it, I still enjoyed it. Although I did skip the rlm review for hereditary which was a good choice. I’d definitely recommend that, watch it after definitely.
There isn’t much of a story, it’s basically about a girl who loses her family in a horrible way and her boyfriend is trying to give her the boot but then this tragedy happens and he can’t. And he’s got a trip planned to this basically religious cult to do his thesis on it for his university anthropology class.
Then horrible shit happens obviously haha. It wouldn’t be a movie if they just sat around singing kumbiya haha.
It’s really just effective and well done. I found it thoroughly entertaining throughout. The only gripes I had were when I compare it to Wickerman which is a high bar to set. My only problems were narratively because in the wickerman it’s very clear why they’re doing what they’re, the purpose of the horrible shit that happens is clear. In Midsommar it’s more murky, it’s explained less and I guess that adds to the mystery because you basically know as much as the main characters do. And in wickerman the main character is a policeman investigating and here it’s just a bunch of teens doing drugs and being retarde.
Also the weird kid with the messed up face is all over the trailers and I don’t know if that was cut or something but that kid is almost not in the movie. The amount they show him in the trailers compared to his actual appearance in the movie is weird. Makes me think some of that stuff was cut. It’s just weird that kid didn’t feature much in the movie after going through all the effort of doing the effect in the first place and showing it off.
I don’t have much more to say about it, I liked it, I was engaged, I definitely think it deserves a watch and maybe a rewatch to pick up on things you might’ve missed. I dunno people seem to like it on rotten tomatoes, the audience and the critics, I have no idea where I got this idea it had a mixed reception haha.
I really like Ari Astor as a director, he’s one to keep a close eye on certainly, I’ll definitely be following his work as he goes forward. In my mind he makes movies that deserve the praise Jordan Peele gets haha. Jordan Peele that guy who makes hacky schlocky garbage but gets praised as if it’s high art because he’s blackish and his movies are about hating white people usually or something along those lines haha. Ari Astor actually makes thoughtful well crafted movies with amazing performances and I feel like he gets sort of looked over.
Just go check it out, Midsommar, it’s on amazon prime right now so if you have that you can watch it for free.
See you…
Making me crazy
Yeah but that’s alright with me
On my hands and knees
Please show me your world
Aslong as you’re next to me
Just the two of us
Oh baby oh sweetheart
You’re my my kind of woman
It’s really no fuss.
Return my love, willingly
To the stars of whom bore-us;
How they’ll gleam most brilliantly,
Whence our ancestors chorus.
Green eyes that spur obsession,
Lips that I have kissed before
Here lies a feint depression,
Where you laid and will once-more.
Our hearts and souls liberate
The mundane world hence unlearned
Spirits joined to conflagrate;
To the stars we shall return.
Hemlo humans.
Not much to report really just been writing and thinking, more poems and prose from your boy. But yeah been feeling really good, like better than I’ve ever felt.
Not just because I’m in love but I feel like I have some direction, a real sense of purpose. I dunno, it’s hard to process, I think if I tried to to lay it all out and really think about it I’d lose my mind.
I feel a pull from something or someone that I can’t explain and it’s so real and good and wonderful, I just don’t ever want it to end. And part of me doesn’t even want it to start because it’s so big and so powerful I feel like it might swallow me, like I might lose myself but then I think maybe that isn’t such a bad thing. Maybe that’s how it was always meant to be, to be one with someone and become something greater isn’t that how it’s supposed to go?
I dunno, I don’t wanna jinx it but I prayed for this, literally. I dreamt about this. I never thought this feeling could be real, maybe I’m still dreaming.
Anyway that aside, we have the time skip here as you can see, so things are about to get real, the birth of the ‘chosen one’. As far as my reading, I finally got around to reading that Parker book they made into a shitty Jason Statham movie and it wasn’t that much better, I mean it was better but not by much. It was both more action packed and cool and also more boring and anti-climactic. The ending was a total wash, I expected a tense tactical fight and it just fizzled out, it was sort of pathetic, totally lost me. But I see why they made a movie out of it, probably the only Parker book where there was a character J-lo could play haha. I mean this is the most lines a woman has ever had in a Parker book, probably why it was so boring and shitty haha.
It was ok, it just wasn’t that special, I didn’t feel a real tension or mystery at all despite Parker being in a weakened state should’ve heightened things and it just didn’t. I dunno, it just wasn’t very gripping, not as engaging as the other books.
But I finished it and I’m back to reading Elric which is always pretty good. I mean it’s better than the witcher haha. Watching paint dry is better than the witcher haha.
It’ll never be as cool or as gripping as the first Conan story, that was bad ass, I wish the witcher books and Elric and even the rest of Conan was as cool as that haha.
Anyway.
See you…
–
Six months later.
“Mother, mother?” A small pale boy called in vain alone on the dingy streets of the once shining city of Murias.
“You are alone child, no one wants you, your own mother died at the sight of you” A fowl hissing voice said.
“Filthy halfbreed”
“Look at his skin, how it shines.”
“Like a fish!”
“Disgusting”
“Fomorian dog!”
“We should cook him up!”
“Your mother was a whore who laid with a fish!” A voice laughed.
“No mother, mother, where are you?” The boy called, his voice ringing through the empty streets of the shining city, the one of four that flew above the heavens in the lap of Dannuu herself.
“She is dead child, you are alone now… and forever”
Suddenly a stirring in the darkness as one falling off a log stirs in terror, the only sound the flicking and cracking of the dim dying fire. A figure stiffly shifting in the darkness groaned. The man rose from his seated position of waking and walked slowly over to a grand fireplace taking up a poker. The lithe man stabbed and prodded at the fire hatefully as if it had wounded him in some way. The pit spitting back at him sparks and flashes of vicious bubbling light. Illuminating the potmarked scarred face of Bres the once beautiful, king of the tuatha. His face at once was talked about throughout Inish Veil. Now cursed by the bard Coirpre, the treacherous half-blood king hides in darkness for fear of losing everything. For only a perfect king can rule the people of Danu.
He stood solemnly over the fire, the light glinting and lighting up his face in a hanging mirror over the pit. He sighed and touched his disfigured face and cursed under his breath. “Coirpre, how I wish I’d seen you die, I wish I had been there when the Fomor stripped the flesh from your bones. For the fomor care not for poetry.” Bres hissed to himself in the dark. The mirror shone strangely for a moment and a ghostly figure appeared there for a passing second.
“My son”
Bres turned in fright but there was nothing in the dark waiting for him.
“Who goes there? Babd? I told you not to disturb me witch!” Bres cursed.
“It is me my boy, my beautiful boy” The soothing ghostly voice said.
“Mother?” Bres gasped “How can this be?”
“I call to you from beyond death to deliver a warning and give new hope”
“A warning?”
“One comes that would take all this that I bequeathed you.”
“Who? Who would dare?”
“Nuada Airgetlám”
“Impossible!”
“It is true, he returns to take your rightful throne. But do not fear, you must away to your father’s kingdom, he will aid you.”
“My-my father?”
“High king of the Fomor, Elatha.” The specter held out it’s hand “Take this ring, so he may know you and go quickly.”
Bres reached out his to the specter and it’s ghostly hand slipped the ring onto his finger and it fit perfectly. But the moment the ring was on his finger there was a loud ruckus from outside of the keep of Dun Bresse. The sound of something akin to a battle but then just silence and then shouting, jubilant shouting.
Bres rushed to his tower so he could see what was going on outside by the stars and fire light of the many sconces and braziers lighting the keep.
Amassed was a great gaggle of peasants. A veritable army carrying farming tools and torches as weapons and shouting foul slogans. Some Bres was sure were reciting the poem of Coirpre himself, loudly and more vulgar than was intended by the dead poet.
Bres tightened his jaw as he watched this procession “Guards!” He shouted from the tower, almost immediately a group of armed guards rushed to meet the horde with spear in hand. But something stopped them. A name and a white horse and the man on that horse slowly trotting into the brazier’s fire light. The torches of the peasants parted to allow this grand figure to pass to the front of their grim procession.
A shining tall slim figure in white and gold riding. In his hand he raised the flaming sword of Nuada. The Claíomh Solais, shining brighter than a star, the light from it so bright Bres swore he could feel it’s glow on his marked face.
“Nuada!” Bres whispered to himself. And as he himself acknowledged who it was before the keep at Dun Bresse. So too did the guards, all in turn dropping to their knees at the sight of the once and dead king in his divine perfection.
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Oh you don’t know me
Cause I’m from a different age
And you can’t see me
And you could hurt me
You wouldn’t know what to say
You should believe me
Our dreams are the same
But a life without love, that’s-
God, that’s just insane.
Henlo, back again and I still hate wordpress’ new format haha. I mean wtf is this shit bro haha?
Ok so got more content, coming pretty hard and heavy with it recently, especially the poetry as you may have noticed. More of those shitty haikus from chopped up songs but now Bardic poetry straight from the motherfucking heart.
Let’s just say I have a new muse but I don’t wanna jinx it. It’s already too perfect to be true. I never even considered writing bardic poetry again, I thought the first time for the book would be the last time, but I dunno what happened. Just one day the haikus weren’t doing it for me anymore. They weren’t enough to capture how this person made me feel. They weren’t big enough and they didn’t speak to my blood, to my ancestors like this did.
I realised I was sort of larping and losing connection to something writing japanese poetry, I mean I still love it and won’t let it go, but I’m not japanese, my ancestors aren’t japanese. I mean they’re probably not irish either haha. But they’re certainly celtic.
Something inside, this person awakened a love for my ancestors, a love for the land and people, something calling back to an ancestral past I never felt before and I couldn’t ignore it, couldn’t get a grip on it with a haiku. I need to use the bardic style to properly put my feelings into words.
I don’t know what that means and I hate to speculate so soon at risk of sounding like the fool I know I am.
But yeah, I dunno, I just… sigh.
See you…
–
Cur’s mocking laughter echoed through hall where no other sound existed.
“Come now, come to die” He cackled mirthlessly.
“No Firbolg, he cannot be beaten” Tuan shouted from the spiral staircase. “We must away!”
“Away where beast? We fight in Magmel itself. There is no escape but through blood.”
“Perhaps there is another way.” A strange tittering voice whistled musically and seemed to be all around them like a flock of birds appearing out of thin air.
Suddenly the entire wall of the dining hall turned to autumn leaves and exploded outward. The masked men were knocked against the other wall of the castle and destroyed instantly. The boy left unharmed stared at the gaping hole in the castle wall cleared away as leaves falling into the ocean and the rocks below.
None of them could believe their eyes as with the leaves had come a giant beast standing nobly in between the carpet of maiden corpses.
A huge majestic stag stood between all gaping eyes. And atop the stag a rider in pale green armor, a helmet topped with branches that looked like the horns of a mighty deer. An axe at his hip of some alien construction and a harp on his other that gleamed with gems.
Balor was awe struck but his instinct was to kill whatever it was that had intruded in his castle. The childs face distending as before in a horrible silent scream as the eye emerged again.
The rider unhooked his harp lackadaisically and played a soothing tune. The melody taming the eye as it shrank back into the aspect of Balor which became limp and motionless.
“Alas I have come for you Firbolg” The strange green rider said in a loud jovial tone as he re-sheathed his harp.
“Who are you spirit? How would you die?” The barbarian hoarsely croaked.
“I would’st not die last of the Firbolg for I am life and life I once gave to you when you lay dying.”
“Cernunnos?”
“I know not this name sir, I am known as Bredbeddle” The spirit said, his voice full of mirth.
“The horned one sent you?”
“I know not of this horned one you speak” The riders voice was playful and full of jest.
“No games from you trickster of the woods. What have you come for?”
“I come for last of the Firbolg, I come as there is one that would meet you and put you on the path to your destiny.”
“Is this not my destiny, to be here now, to slay this Balor?”
“No last of the Firbolg, it is not his time to die nor is it yours.”
“Away with you woodsy one, I care not for your ‘destiny’, I care only to slay my enemy”
“But there are more enemies you may slay last of the Firbolg, but what of the one you lost, think to her and what it would mean to have her back.”
“Do not play with me trickster!”
“It is true what I say, you will be reunited with the one you love if you follow the path that I lay out for you”.
The Firbolg said nothing but the horned one knew his answer.
“Come now, we have no time to waste” The green rider put out his hand for the Firbolg to take.
Cur ignored it and climbed the mighty stag using the strange vine-like material that made the saddle to affix himself to it.
Bredbeddle turned to the doorway. “I had not forgotten about you my friend, come now shapeshifter, this concerns your destiny too.”
The sounds of footsteps now approaching, calling and gibbering in strange tongues.
“We must hurry, my power wains while my feet are not touching the noble isle.”
Tuan leapt and in mid flight took the form of a crow and perched himself atop the antlers of the great stag.
Within moments the room was flooded with fomorian warriors with savage barbed weapons. Their dark cloaks covering little of their flabby hideous bodies but all that greeted them was corpses and leaves.
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Entwined, our hearts Destiny;
To be one, to be divine,
Regret not thy trust-in-me.
Fear not twin souls wouldst align.
In dreams I search endlessly,
For your warmth, your heart illume;
To die again painlessly-
Under a starless, full-moon.
Mother, wife, true belonging;
Fulfilled in me, love enshrined,
Thy fate thou art prolonging;
Our spirits are yet Entwined.
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